I could’ve ghosted

I could’ve ghosted him and been like all the guys who’ve done that to me. 

I could’ve left him wondering what he said or did wrong. Left him wondering when I started feeling like it wasn’t going to work. 

I could’ve left him with no answers.

But I’m not like the men who’ve done that to me. 

I’m not like the men who’ve been so cavalier with my feelings, who disappeared without a trace.

I’m better than them.

I hate being ignored. 

I hate racking my brain, searching for answers I’ll never find, so there’s no way I’d do that to someone else.

Silver Fox

Sweet, old Silver Fox. 

This guy says the kind of things you’d long to hear from the guy you like. The guy you like.

I was trying something new by swiping for older men… 

Do I regret it? No. 

I learned what it could be like, having someone compliment me the way he did.

I learned how it feels to have someone tell you how they feel- straight up, without the bullshit.

I’m not into materialistic things, money and possessions don’t impress me… I doubt they ever will. So when he slipped into conversation that he had to go because he was taking his friends to lunch on the boat, I ignored it and that was strike 1.

In fact, let’s be honest, him not being upfront about having an ex wife and kids was strike 1. So at this point he had 2 strikes.

1 left mate…

Silver fox had asked me out, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to so I was my taking time getting back to him to secure a date, which I know isn’t fair on him, but I didn’t wanna agree unless I was sure. So I put him to the back of my mind and focused on enjoying the time catching up with family and friends. I finally got back to him and fed him a not so untruthful line about having a crazy packed bank holiday weekend. I invited him to get coffee during his lunch break at work the next week and then he sent this nuclear bomb my way…

Strike 3

I felt so many things reading this; cringe, sick, fear, awkward, paranoid that he wanted to take me away and sell me into sex slavery or murder me.

I could’ve ghosted him. At this point, it would have been the easy thing to do. I was given advice to just ghost him, but like I said, I didn’t want to do to him, what others had done to me, because I knew what it felt like to be on the receiving end of the read and ignore message, so I responded…


I really do hope he finds someone who wants to be whisked away for a quick weekend wedding getaway. I think it’s too soon, I don’t know if you agree or if you’re sitting there reading and thinking I missed out on something great. I had to go with my instincts on this one. So that was the end of Silver Fox. I recieved a polite response from him…

Awks tried to upload the text with his name blurred but it wouldn’t upload… Sorry T


Side note:

I also said goodbye to Care Bear… He didn’t come through on the date he was apparently planning and I basically told him I wasn’t gonna be his penpal. There was no fight in him, he said okay and wished me well so that was that… I can’t lie I was a little peeved and I say this not to be vain and egotistical but he was punching waaaayyy above his weight with me! I am way hotter than him and he should’ve been putting in way more effort than he did… Kmt asking for me for photos and shit 🙄 the cheek!

The same goes for oxford guy 🙄🙄🙄🙄 after not hearing from him for like 5 days he pops up with a “hey how’s it going?”

Boy bye 👋🏾

Buttttttt…..

I have a date tomorrow with another Tinderite. Funnily enough a nickname hasn’t come to mind yet. I’ll write a blog post on him soon and I’m sure by then he’ll have a name. Until then…

-Love, Autumn x

2 comments

  1. Sunny Lanning · June 1

    Haha, I’ve had those thoughts! Nice job giving him some solid advice, too, that it’s too much too soon.

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