Goodbye to the Magician

Sometimes I feel like no matter what I do, I end up in the same place. 

Whether or not I wait to sleep with a guy or sleep with him on the first date, it doesn’t matter… It always ends the same.

I wonder if it’s the guys I choose or if it’s me. The magician seemed like a really nice guy and we had some serious banter. Chilling with him felt soo easy. From the start he’s always been bad at responding to messages, I would usually have to wait until the next day for a reply even if I messaged back straight away. 

Andddd… The thing is he’d come online afterwards and still not reply- whatsapp and Facebook messenger! Oh how he lovesss Facebook messenger.

I don’t get guys like that, just send a quick reply even if it’s just to say you’re busy right now and will talk later. Is that too much to ask for? Evidently!! Better yet admit you’re not feeling it anymore.

I’m not really a “just take the hint” kind of girl, I like things spelled it for me to avoid any misunderstandings. However, in these cases with guys who appear to be ignoring you, it’s easier to just accept that whatever you had is now over.

You know when you can just sense it by the way the guy is messaging you? Here’s the last few messages sent back and forth between us.

Sooo… After he replied- “nah fuck that.” I decided not to respond. I mean, what kind of response does that even deserve? It was a very low investment message and I felt it was beneath me to reply. Then later he double texted. It’s nice beeing on the receiving end for once, especially since I actually like the magician.

The rate at which he responded to my messages was the quickest it’s ever been, but then he didn’t reply to the last thing I said. I do wonder if maybe it freaked him out, but I feel like I served him a slice of quality banter and I got nothing in return.

I checked the time and thought it was likely he fell asleep, but here we are 3 days later and still no reply. There’s a part of me that has accepted I’ll probably never see or hear from him again and therefore I should just drop it. The other half is saddened and disappointed and not because we slept together, but because I felt so relaxed around him so quickly and I’ve never felt that way before… 
At the end of the day I stand by my decisions. If I could do it again, I’d still go home with him on the first date, I’d still have sex with him. It was the best date I’ve ever been on and I know I’ll remember it forever.

So let’s raise a glass to the magician

-A great kisser

-Very satisfying lover

-My first 2 night stand πŸ˜… (he should’ve left it at 1)

-Loud ass snorer (I actually bought some ear plugs for next time πŸ™ˆ)

May you find what you’re looking for…

As for me, I’ll be spending this weekend in Derby/ Nottingham partying my ass off and kissing cute guys in clubs until no longer remember who the magician is. Healthy right?  

-Love, Autumn x


  1. L. Rorschach · June 23

    What the hell….?! That’s ridiculous. I’m disappointed, too!

    I feel the same way as you: No matter what i do, the result is the same.

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  2. indiangirldating · June 23

    awwww! I had such high hopes for the magician! sorry babe!

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  3. sex line stories · June 23


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    • Haha I couldn’t have said it better myself πŸ˜…

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      • sex line stories · June 23

        This is the reason I don’t date. I haven’t got the patience for these idiots

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      • It does take an awful lot of patience doesn’t it

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      • sex line stories · June 23

        Yeah and I have none! Plus I’m to blunt. I’d get into trouble saying what’s on my mind lol

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      • Haha sounds like me. I hate that I have to constantly be thinking about what I say or do so I don’t scare guys away. I don’t care what anyone says dating is one big game, if you don’t know the rules you won’t get very far

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      • sex line stories · June 23

        Very true!

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  4. The V Pub · June 23

    I think that it’s really you that put the magic in the magician. You’ll find someone better and someone who appreciates who you are. In the meantime, party on!

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    • Aww that really brought a smile to my face thankyou ☺️ and indeed I will party haaaard lol xx


  5. Grim's Crypt · June 23

    He probably didn’t want anything deeper than the sex. His loss though.

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  6. pratseek · June 24

    This is the problem, men can’t accept the fact that a girl slept with a boy early because she thinks that he was worthwhile, but he thinks she was too easy..stupid boys

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