Hey!! It’s been a whilee, sorry I’ve been ill again! I have this reoccurring flu thing, complete with a throat infection that’s just been kicking my ass over and over again!
Things with the pirate are pretty much the same. I’m seeing his band play on Friday for the release of their new EP so I’m really looking forward to that, but I’m also really nervous. I told my sister that seeing him in person, the way he looks at me, reacts to me, will tell me a lot. I think it’ll tell me if there’s still something between us, if there’s something left to fight for. I’m scared that there won’t be.
As for the tickets we have, to see the band from New Orleans, I don’t see that happening. I told him that I don’t want to see them without him (as he previously said I should take his ticket and see them with a friend, if he’s not feeling up to it). He tried convincing me to go, but I wasn’t having it. I told him I don’t want him to think I’m missing out because of him. The truth is I didn’t know the band before he told me about them and the only reason I wanted to go was so I could spend the evening with him and share the experience of him seeing a band he’s been waiting to see for ages! I wanted to see the joy and excitement on his face, the anticipation!! So seeing them on my own feels pointless to me. Don’t get me wrong if they were tickets to see someone I really liked, like Rihanna I would’ve called my sister straight away and I know she would’ve been in!
There’s a lot of other stuff happening for me right now, besides my cursed love life and my shitty health! My new job contract is being sorted out, it’s a promotion which means a lot of responsibility and hard work. However, this means I’ll be able to move out soon… sweet freedom awaits me! I plan to find a place with my cousin Summer and one of her friends from uni; who’ve I’ve met and is really nice. So fingers crossed by early next year I’ll be completely settled in to my new place, hopefully basking in the glow of my blossoming relationship with the pirate!I’ll let you know how things go on Friday.-Love, Autumn x