I’m still alive!

Hey!! It’s been a whilee, sorry I’ve been ill again! I have this reoccurring flu thing, complete with a throat infection that’s just been kicking my ass over and over again!

Things with the pirate are pretty much the same. I’m seeing his band play on Friday for the release of their new EP so I’m really looking forward to that, but I’m also really nervous. I told my sister that seeing him in person, the way he looks at me, reacts to me, will tell me a lot. I think it’ll tell me if there’s still something between us, if there’s something left to fight for. I’m scared that there won’t be.

As for the tickets we have, to see the band from New Orleans, I don’t see that happening. I told him that I don’t want to see them without him (as he previously said I should take his ticket and see them with a friend, if he’s not feeling up to it). He tried convincing me to go, but I wasn’t having it. I told him I don’t want him to think I’m missing out because of him. The truth is I didn’t know the band before he told me about them and the only reason I wanted to go was so I could spend the evening with him and share the experience of him seeing a band he’s been waiting to see for ages! I wanted to see the joy and excitement on his face, the anticipation!! So seeing them on my own feels pointless to me. Don’t get me wrong if they were tickets to see someone I really liked, like Rihanna I would’ve called my sister straight away and I know she would’ve been in!

There’s a lot of other stuff happening for me right now, besides my cursed love life and my shitty health! My new job contract is being sorted out, it’s a promotion which means a lot of responsibility and hard work. However, this means I’ll be able to move out soon… sweet freedom awaits me! I plan to find a place with my cousin Summer and one of her friends from uni; who’ve I’ve met and is really nice. So fingers crossed by early next year I’ll be completely settled in to my new place, hopefully basking in the glow of my blossoming relationship with the pirate!I’ll let you know how things go on Friday.-Love, Autumn x


  1. L. Rorschach · November 7

    So glad you’re still around and updating when you can. 🙂 I hear you on the shitty health – I’m dealing with the same and just finished calling my doctor’s appointment asking them WTF is going on. :-/ So now I have yet ANOTHER doctor’s appointment scheduled for tomorrow. I suspect I’m on the wrong antibiotic.

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    • autumnsinnerthoughts · November 7

      Thanks 😊 Yeah I saw mine today, the only thing interesting she said was my tonsils were bigger than expected for my age and they were inflamed 🙄 it’s annoying when it’s just one thing after the next. I hope you get your stuff sorted out soon too!


      • L. Rorschach · November 7

        I’m sorry to hear it. Are they going to recommend a tonsilectomy? I had my tonsils out when I was 19 because of nearly constant strep throat and tonsilitis. The great news? I have only had strep throat 2x since then (and obviously no tonsilitis since you actually have to own tonsils to get that).

        Get well soon! ❤

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      • autumnsinnerthoughts · November 7

        Nope in their eyes I haven’t had tonsillitis enough to have that. Truth is I just haven’t been to the dr every time. I can be quite the hypochondriac so I thought I had throat cancer once but it must have just been tonsillitis but at that time I didn’t know and cos I kept saying cancer, my parents told me to stop being silly and just drink fluids and take pain killers. I only found out when I had my last case of tonsillitis and the dr was doing a physical exam and said I’ve had tonsillitis before 😅 I wish I could have them out though!! I’m sick of being ill


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