On my way to see the pirate now… super nervous.
A couple nights ago, he told me he was feeling seriously stressed out about the launch and I was waiting for him to find a skilful way to uninvite me. Especially when he explained that he was worked up about a lot of the stuff he still needed to sort out, including stuff on the night. I was thinking here we go… here it comes
I simply asked- so what are you saying?
He responded that he wasn’t saying anything, he just didn’t want to disappoint me or for me to feel like he’s ignoring me because he’s flitting around sorting stuff out while I’m just sitting there waiting for them to perform, as his mums not there to keep my company this time.
I was floored that I was among the things he was getting stressed about. I told him how important I knew the launch was to him and that that made it important to me too and he didn’t have to worry about me, I’d be fine. He worries too much, it’s really sweet though 😊
Also I decided to spend the night in a hotel, just me. Initially I was gonna get the train home but my mum said I should just get a hotel so I agreed as it was already at the back of my mind. I told the pirate my plans, making sure to assure him I wasn’t expecting him to stay with me. I know he’s gonna wanna crash in his own bed after it’s all over, and relax. He’s been stressing about this for ages.He told me he didn’t mind driving me home, but the thought of him taking the two hour round trip in his state just didn’t sit well with me. As much as I would’ve loved to spend an hour with him in the car. After asking a more times if I was sure, he said okay, then told me to let him know if I change my mind.
Doors open at 7 but his band doesn’t play until around 9:30/10pm so I said I’ll see him there at 9pm. At least that’ll only be 30-60 mins of him worrying about leaving me on my own 😅
He’s such a sweetheart, I miss him soo much and can’t wait to see him 😍 Fingers crossed everything goes okay. That being said I stayed up til 10am doing my hair crashed and woke up to a call from the pirate asking if I was ok and a bunch of worried messages. My lack of sleep/zombie state meant I could barely participate in the phone conversation, let alone remember what was said lol I’ll have to ask him later!
–Love, Autumn x